Reaching for the moon, and landing among the stars.

This past year I've grown more as an individual, but especially this summer. And I set a goal; to fall in love with myself and this planet. I've always sold myself short, especially during school. I procrastinate anything and everything, I put off doing my homework and I let my grades fall. I've never really sweat any of this until recently, when the big senior year is approaching. I've been thinking about my decision to serve in the airforce, and college. After checking out colleges I'm disappointed in myself for not taking my grades serious, and for not putting aside my wants in order to focus on my needs. I've set my mind to appreciate myself more, acknowledging that I am an intelligent being. I made some decisions this summer that I thought were best for me, and I learned God has different plans then my own. With these decisions I was in a funk, where I wasn't appreciating the little things like I should. I was not valuing myself. Within the past month I've taken several trips with my parents, and with each trip I set aside alone time to appreciate myself and the world around me. It all started with just learning to love my flaws; I don't have perfect skin, but that doesn't make me any less beautiful.  I don't have the tiniest waist or a model figure. However I learned my body is perfect for me. Next I started setting goals for myself, drinking more water, Doing things that make me happier, voicing my needs and learn to set goals for school. I started appreciating the world we live in, going on bike rides, hiking, and playing ukulele at the beach. Taking in the birds, the sky, the flowers the trees and just thanking God. There is so much beauty that we overlook everyday because we are used to seeing it, for instance the mountain. Living in the PNW we don't realize how lucky we are to have those amazing views.
With learning to love the little things I've gained a better knowledge of the greater things; like applying myself 100% to school and my future. My dad and I have been talking about situations that he can help me avoid because they aren't helpful. My friends are constantly pushing me and encouraging me to always do my best, they reassure me that I've got this and I can take senior year head on. I've also established accountability friends, to check in with me to make sure I'm taking care of myself and focusing on my happiness. I haven't made my decisions on whether or not I will serve yet, or if I'll serve straight out of highschool. Who knows, maybe I'll wait four years, maybe I won't. However I know I am aiming for the moon and even if I miss I will land among the stars. I know sometimes I may fall but it's important to get back up and try try again. I'm very proudly myself for learning my worth and to work harder on improving myself and choosing happiness.
For those also struggling with not loving yourself or wanting a greater appreciation for things;
- drink more water.
-stretch more
- look in the mirror and think of five things physical you enjoy about yourself, and five things character wise you love about yourself
- surround yourself with positive, uplifting people.
- remember to put your needs first before anyone else.
- go on nature walks and just observe and listen
- listen to music that makes you feel good, watch funny videos, your favorite movies, etc.
- read a new book.
These things can change your outlook so much on life.

Life is too short to not love others and yourself.

- Just an awkward, Outspoken writer.