"This is a story all about how, my life got flipped and turned upside down."
My life has changed and plans I had didn't necessarily work out, the way I wanted them to.
Let's start at the beginning, In second grade I moved in with my grandparents whom adopted me (I call them my mom and dad, not many know this). I started school at pope elementary and absolutely loved it. The teachers were amazing, my friends were incredible and that is where my choir teacher passion started. It was weird to be the new kid though, however as a child it's so much easier to make friends. you just play kickball, or tag and boom you've got best friends. I stayed at pope until 6th grade, moved up to glacier view and that is where I met my closest of friends; e.w, k.p, j.v, e.a, a.l-p & a.t. They are the greatest gals I've ever met, although we weren't as close in junior high as we are now. I needed to do a lot of growing up in junior high in order for us to reach the point we are today. Glacier view was amazing though, LOVED choir, loved my friends and my classes. High school hits and I just get super emotional all the time and incredibly anxious about class and what not. Emerald ridge was so special and dear to me, my friends, the activities I associated with. overall it was amazing to attend school with people I've known since elementary and junior high.
This summer hit and my life just kind of did a 360 & my plans didn't work out how I was expecting them to. I just had a lot going on and I needed a break from my parents so I moved in with my biological mom. She's the type of person that isn't the greatest role model, but she's my mom (well was) and I thought highly of her. That situation didn't pan out in the slightest how I thought it would, and that was very difficult for me. I lost three people I thought very highly of, who just really let me down. and that was really getting me down, on top of that this year I switched schools which to some may not be a big deal. To me it is/was because as a kid I switched schools so much that I wanted permanent structure. I wanted my friends to always be my friends and to always attend school together. I was super anxious and against moving schools. I kept saying things like if I was at ER I wouldn't do this, etc. And I was just being super pessimistic about the whole thing. Don't get me wrong the first day was difficult, being thrown into a new school with people I didn't know, getting lost and just not experiencing senior year with my friends is difficult. After my first day I just wanted to take a nap, so I did. When I woke up I made it my goal to look more optimistically at switching schools. That brings me to my sudden realization I had tonight. Change is necessary and the only person standing in my way was myself. Today was a great day at school, I played bingo with my friend at lunch, got like $2.00 back in quarters today when I bought a water bottle for $1.00 (Don't know how that happened but not going to complain). I made amazing friends in choir, they are all so so kind and welcoming to me and make me feel apart of the choir family. Tonight I went to our first football game of the year. At first I was sitting by myself, wishing my friends were there and I realized that I could make new friends. So I did, they are the kindest, funniest, quirkiest people I've ever met. I was having fun and making memories; we danced, sang, laughed, ate pizza, cheered, laughed some more and we won the game. It was awesome!! After I got home I just was discussing with my parents how school went really well, I'm focusing more and scheduling study times, making new friends & enjoying myself. There's no point in me being all sad, because truth is after high school my friends and I would attend different colleges yet still keep in contact but they wouldn't always be there physically. I think having this fresh start at a new school is awesome, new friends, new experiences, time to figure out what I want for myself and to prove my biological mom wrong. That I will be nothing like her. It's just been overall a great learning experience, I've started to dress the way I wanted to and stopped being self conscious. Through so I've discovered I LOVE MOM JEANS. I started improving myself, my attitude, and cut negative people out of my life.
I'm looking forward to making even more memories, to adventuring with my friends, and enjoying senior year. You only graduate from high school once and I want to make everything count before I do. I can't wait to navigate through my senior year; and I'm very thankful for everyone being so kind. Also very thankful for those who constantly support me through difficult times, It's very appreciated. Most of all, very thankful for my parents & them pushing me to reach my fullest potential this year.
Great things come in the form of obnoxious blue and orange that are starting to look pleasant and feels like home. GO EAGLES!!
-just an awkward, outspoken writer
Let's start at the beginning, In second grade I moved in with my grandparents whom adopted me (I call them my mom and dad, not many know this). I started school at pope elementary and absolutely loved it. The teachers were amazing, my friends were incredible and that is where my choir teacher passion started. It was weird to be the new kid though, however as a child it's so much easier to make friends. you just play kickball, or tag and boom you've got best friends. I stayed at pope until 6th grade, moved up to glacier view and that is where I met my closest of friends; e.w, k.p, j.v, e.a, a.l-p & a.t. They are the greatest gals I've ever met, although we weren't as close in junior high as we are now. I needed to do a lot of growing up in junior high in order for us to reach the point we are today. Glacier view was amazing though, LOVED choir, loved my friends and my classes. High school hits and I just get super emotional all the time and incredibly anxious about class and what not. Emerald ridge was so special and dear to me, my friends, the activities I associated with. overall it was amazing to attend school with people I've known since elementary and junior high.
This summer hit and my life just kind of did a 360 & my plans didn't work out how I was expecting them to. I just had a lot going on and I needed a break from my parents so I moved in with my biological mom. She's the type of person that isn't the greatest role model, but she's my mom (well was) and I thought highly of her. That situation didn't pan out in the slightest how I thought it would, and that was very difficult for me. I lost three people I thought very highly of, who just really let me down. and that was really getting me down, on top of that this year I switched schools which to some may not be a big deal. To me it is/was because as a kid I switched schools so much that I wanted permanent structure. I wanted my friends to always be my friends and to always attend school together. I was super anxious and against moving schools. I kept saying things like if I was at ER I wouldn't do this, etc. And I was just being super pessimistic about the whole thing. Don't get me wrong the first day was difficult, being thrown into a new school with people I didn't know, getting lost and just not experiencing senior year with my friends is difficult. After my first day I just wanted to take a nap, so I did. When I woke up I made it my goal to look more optimistically at switching schools. That brings me to my sudden realization I had tonight. Change is necessary and the only person standing in my way was myself. Today was a great day at school, I played bingo with my friend at lunch, got like $2.00 back in quarters today when I bought a water bottle for $1.00 (Don't know how that happened but not going to complain). I made amazing friends in choir, they are all so so kind and welcoming to me and make me feel apart of the choir family. Tonight I went to our first football game of the year. At first I was sitting by myself, wishing my friends were there and I realized that I could make new friends. So I did, they are the kindest, funniest, quirkiest people I've ever met. I was having fun and making memories; we danced, sang, laughed, ate pizza, cheered, laughed some more and we won the game. It was awesome!! After I got home I just was discussing with my parents how school went really well, I'm focusing more and scheduling study times, making new friends & enjoying myself. There's no point in me being all sad, because truth is after high school my friends and I would attend different colleges yet still keep in contact but they wouldn't always be there physically. I think having this fresh start at a new school is awesome, new friends, new experiences, time to figure out what I want for myself and to prove my biological mom wrong. That I will be nothing like her. It's just been overall a great learning experience, I've started to dress the way I wanted to and stopped being self conscious. Through so I've discovered I LOVE MOM JEANS. I started improving myself, my attitude, and cut negative people out of my life.
I'm looking forward to making even more memories, to adventuring with my friends, and enjoying senior year. You only graduate from high school once and I want to make everything count before I do. I can't wait to navigate through my senior year; and I'm very thankful for everyone being so kind. Also very thankful for those who constantly support me through difficult times, It's very appreciated. Most of all, very thankful for my parents & them pushing me to reach my fullest potential this year.
Great things come in the form of obnoxious blue and orange that are starting to look pleasant and feels like home. GO EAGLES!!
-just an awkward, outspoken writer
Comments
Post a Comment