I am.

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I am bookstores & Christmas lights. 
I come from vanilla candles & Starwars marathons.
I hear Indie/Folk music playing as I detox and journal.
I see my friends & I sitting on the roof staring at stars.
I want no more name calling, empty promises and fake apologies.
I pretend to be confident but in reality I'm incredibly self conscious.
I feel unappreciated and devalued when people put me down and don't support me.
I touch my phone when I'm nervous, constantly locking and unlocking it.
I worry about anything and everything; from how people view me & if they approve, to what will I wear to work tomorrow.
I cry when I get frustrated & when I feel sad.
I am tired of the hatred going on in the world around us. 
I understand those who don't feel important to others & feel judged for being different.
I say sorry too much & forgive those who don't deserve it.
I dream about adventuring, my future filled with my future children & spouse. I dream about my favorite places.
I feel safe when I am surrounded by my favorite books, my purple Christmas lights.
I fear for the safety of my family members of color.
I love everything fall; pumpkin patches, fire places, chai tea & oversized sweatshirts.
I feel most powerful when other's appreciate my ideas and listen to what I think is important.
I am an overachiever & an awkward goofball. 
But most importantly I am Karizma Houze.

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